and i told her 'i'm just making this more complicated"

i though i saw a rainbow today.
i thought i saw it when i was looking the other way.
i thought i saw it out of the corner of my eye, and i saw it dancing out of the grey clouds down a hill behind the trees where a boy told me he used to think a green monster lived. i could feel it, too, but when i looked it in the eye it disappeared before i could count the colors or the moments of its existence. i felt something more beautiful and more alive than anything i could imagine or reach out to or touch. i felt it, though, and i couldn't have been mistaken because a rainbow is more perfect than you and me, and as innocent as a baby or a sweet and silent dream.
it isn't just as much as it is.
the minutes passed in thoughts and words before time and structure left me standing alone on the pavement with nothing but my feet to move me away from what i saw, but even still i i thought i saw a rainbow today.... and long after i left and sat down again, the rainbow followed me home. and it followed me more certainly than anything i could make up: more vivid than a dream and more present than myself. i think i was the only one, but i saw a rainbow today and i was not alone.