my stomach hurts, but god damn, i can’t feel a thing today. it’s been three days since yesterday as far as i can remember and it will take forever for tomorrow to hit. i can’t seem to find enough time between right now and tonight, and i think my hours are slipping far too soon and far too much for their own good. i’ve been spending the days praying and saying and hoping i’ll do better than before (but this time around i can’t seem to match everyone's hand and it's not always in the game we're playing) and god damn today.

i haven't run out of things to say, just the quiet will to type it out. energy cost's more than two fifty.