vivaces again

one of those heart-jumping-to-the-throat afternoons.. the kind where i let my mind slip for a good couple hours: cleaning, cooking, and searching aimlessly. the kind where when i finally return to my place in reality, a part of my absentminded world comes dragging down with the rest of me.
and i start to see you.
not really you, though.
him..her..you..them.... someone of anyone who shares any remotely similar characteristics to someone i knew (someone who they really are not).
and i know it's not you or him or her or any of them for that matter. i know there are people from the past that i'll probably never see again, and they tend to be the ones i see the most. the ones it's probably better to never run into again, you know? it's hard to explain. i't not a hallucination. no..not by any means. it's not a deep desire or longing that plays tricks on my mind, either.
i guess my mind always runs ten different directions of "what if..." and my imagination gets the best of me.
and it was one of those heart-jumping-to-the-throat sort of afternoons. one of those quick-to-panic modes where the "what if" and his striking similarities caught me off guard. but it wasn't anyone i knew. not really, anyway.








erm. it's probably fair to point out at this point that the person i thought i saw earlier today doesn't have a myspace/facebook/blog of any sort, and is, in fact, on the other side of the planet. so don't worry or get your hopes up or anything, dear readers.