tape. tapetapetape.

and sometimes it's like i try too hard to find answers
and other times it's like i ask for help before i try too hard.


i often have to remind myself that life doesn't work like a math problem- that each action does not necessarily result in a calculated reaction... and i remind myself...but..... i still wish everything could be calculated... planned out... you know.... but it never is
it hardly is.
but i try to figure it out
and i feel

i feel like i'm trying to open my eyes before i'm finished counting out a long game of hide and seek.
but my eyes are already opened.
and math is not a life problem
(or, rather, life is not a math problem).


i don't know.