i'm just a girl in the world

ohh.. summer has hit. most days i'm waking up at the crack of dawn to open one of ten million starbucks in downtown seattle...sometimes i think i'm too old to be 'just a barista' but then i realize i think much more of myself than that. sure..you can hire any punk off the street to make coffee for a little more than minimum wage, but i actually really like this. even the automatic machine we have at our store- it's one of the better ones i've worked with.
so i wake up around three thirty... and even if i'm not opening... my body has begun to wake up with the sunrise. seattle is lovely when there are no cars in the street. you can smell the ocean. you can walk in the middle of the streets. nobody bothers you. it's beautiful. i like to pretend it's my own secret part of seattle i don't have to share with anyone. the buildings are painted orange and yellow and blue from the sunrise... you can breathe the salty air that goes missing once the streets are flooded... it's beauty.
the downside to this is that i've really begun to feel tired by the afternoon... but i don't want to miss any of the days of summer... because i know that once fall rolls around i'll be missing the heat and the sunshine.
so i've been filling my time getting as much as i can..... spending late nights laughing with close friends... and though i always leave muttering "i have to wake up in three hours...", i wouldn't trade any of these nights.

i've been using my film camera my mother handed down to me... last year we had our own photography classes every monday... she taught me everything she knew and we went out together and practiced taking photos together. sure...every hipster on the hill has a camera... but i enjoy it, and it's something i'll do with my mother again after we've stopped arguing.

ohhh, i've started hanging out at the trendy-as-fuck coffee bars all over seattle again. these are what i will miss if i ever move... because let's face it, i get free starbucks coffee any day of the week, but when you're competing with arosa and vivace's and victrola and vita and........ ohhhhhhhhh seattle :)



i've recently been accused of not caring about the right things.
truth is, i care about everything, but lives > grades any day of the week.

goodbye old life.
goodbye pleasing everyone else.
hello new world.